Even Hugh and Edward were watching, their own fearforgotten."You will know if you have been chosen. Flames will eat at you, neitherhot nor cold, not p...inful but nevertheless consuming, leaving void intheir wake. They will erase your physical being, leaving only youressence. What you are will cease, but who you are will continue. You arebeing baptized for your new life, freed from the cage of what was."I wanted to scream, to shout, anything but speak in that monotone. Theflames, dear God, the. Or that time I spent with Kelly in Oklahoma- it had been awkward at first, but ... we took my shattered world and created an entire new one together.Happiness had visited me. And then left me. I never seemed to be able to hold on to it for very long. I run from it. I think, perhaps, it scares me. I don’t really deserve it.The longest period of happiness, or periods, had always been with Rachel. We were often together for months at a time. It was always filled with laughter, love, and love. I had put on a short half pants n a spegetti by then as mark came out of the loo i wanted to go so i approached the door i stumbbled n then mark tried to help me get up but as he tried to catch me his hands brushed against my brests .I walked into the loo ,thinking by the time i get out mark will be gone in his room,but when i got out the lights were off the door was open so thinking mark has left i went to close the door n then i sliped off my gown n the headed to sleep feeling dizzy n week. Then you're going to play them when we go to the record company tolearn about the other songs."That did not sound like a good idea to me, but I knew that I wouldn't beable to get out of it. Especially if he bought me a new guitar for doingit."Okay," I finally agreed. He'd have to see the truth when the recordcompany agreed with me that the songs weren't very good.At least I didn't have to go to school tomorrow.---Joe's Music Shop did not sound like a very upscale music store. But inreality, it.