The salty taste of blood reminded her of who she was. She felt the mask settle back over her face as the blood and growing anger caused the pain to re...ede. When she spoke, her voice was brittle, anguish hidden just beneath the cover of her anger. ‘I neva’ believed in love befo’… I-I thought wid you would be different. I were wrong.’ Her pain made her lash out. ‘I jess’ Karsh afta’ all I’s dun need o’ want love ifn’ this what it gonna do. Sa’ go…leave…da Karsh were right. All dea’ is be blood. He had such a strong presence about him that I was unable to refuse his demands. The foot of the bed had a simple bar from one side to the other and happened to be just at waist height, I don’t know if this was on purpose or by accident but it was at the right level as he leaned me over it until my face was on the bed. He told me that he was going to tie me to the rail and explained it was for my own good because he did not want me moving around during the “lickin”. I repeated the word “lickin”. Ente thuda akathittu ayal kettan nokki but ayalude kunna was so big ente Pooril annu athu keriyilla…kure neram try cheuthu…but samayam poyathu arinjilla..it was 4.30 and the other students stared coming so I went back to class. But he told the class that there was no tution as he was feeling sick. I told the others innocently that I had to wait till my driver comes. So the other two students left. We went back to the bedroom and we started again this time he put on a blue movie and showed me. Ab woe k chote se short me thi aur mein aaj pahli baar kisi ladki ki jangh ko sachi nazar se dekh raha tha. Hanuman bhakt meri neew me daraar nahi pura ka pura neew hi toot gaya. Tight t shirt aura b us chote short me pura tang dikhate hue wo nazara mujhe asal duniya se bahar le gaya aur ye use bhi pata chal gaya jab meri bottle me pani bhar gaya aur fir bhi me use bharta raha uase dekhte hue jab usne tokte hue kaha mujhse “ oye kar kya rahe ho? Pani kyu waste kar rahe ho?”Tab jakar hosh aaya.