”Rebecca didn’t say anything for a moment, but I could see her face turn ghost white and could see the fear in her eyes.“Oh My God!” Rebecca s...ated and I could also hear the fear in her voice, “Your kids are going to hate me ... thinking you nearly died because of ... because of me!”“Nonsense,” I answered, “They are going to love you ... love you just like I love you!”I nearly laughed out loud at the expression on Rebecca’s face. I don’t think it would have been possible for her eyebrows to. I'm not really in a state to question someone'sidentity, am I?" What I was surprised by was his body type. Iexpected, I don't know, someone heavier as if to compensate for wantingto hide his female body.As if reading my mind, she said, "I suppose s-he's fortunate. He tookafter John's side. They're all thin hipped." When we were at Uni, Fiwas gorgeous. I remember a group of us going on holiday to Greece andher drawing stares on the beach. She was still gorgeous, but we allhad gotten. I felt goodin my clothes. In fact I felt better than I had ever feltbefore. But as I got closer to home, I started to feel thatI had made a terrible mistake. I couldn't go around dressedlike a woman. I wanted to be comfortable, but I didn't wantto be a woman, or even dress like one. What would myfriends say? What about my family? What about my job? No,dressing like a woman was not an option.When I got home I brought all my purchases into myapartment. I sat there looking at all the women's. After a few hours of drinking and dancing my head was swimming. It was the most fun I ever had. At around 1AM I invited Amy back to my place to spend the night. She told me that she didn’t bring anything to wear to bed and I said that nothing was perfectly fine.On the drive home I wanted to touch Amy so bad. I remembered on my date with Mike at Applebee’s how he had placed a hand on my thigh. I was scared of being rejected but I placed my hand on her right thigh while she drove. I waited.