I kept thinking about what Elizabeth had told me. It didn't make much sense to me that our fill in cook would know more than all the doctors Mama had ...een to. Marijuana was illegal besides. I had grown up in an environment where we were taught that our bodies were God's temples, and we weren't even supposed to drink or smoke. We were taught to eat good, and to exercise ourselves often, to keep our temples in good shape for God. I had seen Mama during many of these depressions, and she wasn't. I enjoyed that evening, chatting easily and catching up with what Mum and Dad had been doing. It was a different world from Cardiff, but I settled straight back into it, as nothing major had changed.It would have been even better if Julie had been there, though!Jen had just left school - or at least she would at the end of term, but was excused from attending as she had nothing further to do there; she was just over a year younger than me, and hoping to go to University in October, so she was. Fir unhone mujhe dekha aur mere gale lag gayi jab wo gale lagi toh unke bade boobs mere se touch ho rahe the bahut mazaa aaraha tha…… Fir main waha se apne kuchh gaon ke dosto ke saath bahar chala gya fir main shaam ko wapis aaya aur khaana khaya fir hum sab batein kar rahe the toh batein karte karte mujhe neend aane lagi toh main upar chat wale room me sone chala gya aur fir 1 ghante baad meri aakhen khuli toh dekha mere bagal mein meri bua ki ladki leti hai aur apni jaangh mere paron par. .. capable though many of them likely were ... for the usual tiresome objections against attempting such a radical disruption to the traditional order might destabilize her authority.) The hopeless had, to the best of her abilities, been consoled. Everything that could be done, had been done.Everything except me.Éowyn wondered when her internal narrative had grown quite so bawdy. I fear I know exactly when, but I prefer not to think about it. And it’s not true, anyway; I was “done” less than.