I've had a few steady girlfriends, but we always seem to drift apart after a few years and revert from lovers back to friends. I knew the perfect gal ...as out there, but so far, I hadn't found her.I wasn't ready to give up. Across the street from my shop is a coffee house where I get my morning brew each day. Several months ago, a new barista started the early morning shift and was so breathtakingly sexy, besides getting my morning caffeine fix, I left the coffee house with a raging boner each. The following weekend, Becky, Joanne and some of there friends spent Saturday at the mall. Naturally all the boys were there also and Brian spent a lot of time flirting with Becky and trying for a date. The next weekend Becky was at the beach again. Her and Joanne went for a walk in the dunes with Joanne's boyfriend and Brian. When they were alone, the boys sneaked a few kisses from the girls. Later the girls were dropped off at my house and Becky begged me to give her some money so Joanne and. I was losing myself in him and enjoying every second of it. When my parents went away for a one- week convention, I invited him to the house to show him my room (among other things). He left work early so we could get an early start on our time together. He looked somewhat amazed at my private living space. I guess the “peace sign” posters and counter culture photos took him by surprise. “Your room looks like something out of the ‘Mod Squad,” he said as he looked at my choice of decoration.. ’ Tears were streaming down my face, and I thanked my lucky star for my barren state and inability to give birth. The thought of bringing a child to life in the world I had been living in turned my stomach, and my breaths became fast and shallow as panic gripped me. I closed my eyes and concentrated on taking deep, slow breaths to stave off the attack, and when I felt calm enough I looked up at Gabriella, who was pressing two paper tissues to her eyes and kept swallowing, possibly to keep from.