I felt intimidated, but that in itself incited me to look more deeply into myself, to listen to my impressions. As I strolled, I began observing every...hing more meticulously. New York struck me at first as simply a chaotic puzzle, a violent offhandedness. But taken separately, some pieces seemed studied, calculated, learned and honed to the point where they leapt out with an ease that seemed spontaneous, innate. Merged, everything merely seemed disordered. People seemed to know where they were. I called her cellphone on a Monday night, shortly after Halloween and was about to hang up when she answered. She was somewhere loud. There seemed to be a party going on.“Rand!” she said pleasantly. “How are you?” she said loudly.“Not bad,” I said, confused. “I haven’t heard from you in a while. I was starting to wonder how you were getting along.”“Yeah, Mom said you called on my birthday. That was sweet. Listen, it’s kind of loud here. I’m out with the girls from work. Can I call you back. I hugged her again said thanks and returned home. While driving me again thought whether I should go to her again. I decided not to go again as, by then with all those episodes, my head was all most bursting with excitement. It gave a sense of fulfillment as I got what was missing until then in my life. There was no feeling of guilty of cheating my lovely wife. It was a great moment to cherish for a long time, till me end. Being intimate with some body, oh it was too good. I was very. , like a Runesword or something similar." Tanith, you are holding back," Aaron asked, the accusation clear in his tone. "What are you trying to sidestep?" I think you need to be careful when using Eldritch anytime your emotions are heightened," Tanith replied, still sidestepping the question but trying to give him an answer he would understand and accept. "You just need to keep a level head, that is all. Keep your inner beast at bay." That is it, keep my emotions under check?" Aaron asked.