The female self seemed ... bonded to me. She wasalmost pathetically grateful for even the smallest kindness. The male partwas more confused.. On the o...e hand, his anger and hatred of me was stillthere, and had gotten worse, but he also seemed to see me as his only hopeto regain control.I took her back to my house, figuring I could at least get her some warmclothes and a meal. When we got there, I offered her some boy clothes,only to have her freak out. Some how, this female part of him. I had boxes of rations land on top of me and all of Marjorie's spare gear went flying. The left side rear door, which had been bolted, was open and flat on the ground. The whole vans right side was distorted and inclining at about forty-five degrees.I crawled out from amongst the debris and out of the van. All around the clearing small fires were burning and the clearing had increased in size by almost double, with trees lying flattened. The cars I had lined up looked as if they had been just. ? I tried to control a sudden abdominal tremor I felt seeing her naked and forced myself to breathe evenly. We got up from the couch and I led her to the back bedroom. On the way, we small-talked about sexual things and what she might expect. She told me she hadn’t ever done anything like this before. I said we’d both figure out a lot of things as we went along. In the bedroom, I began acting out some things wewould do, our respective positions and such.. I thought that might put her at. Carol’s mom noticing some change in me asked me if things were fine between Carol and me. Not wanting to break their heart, I told them that things were fine and assured that we were happy together.The following day, I was at war with the thoughts of going home to visit Carol to see if she and Aaron had decided to spend the night together. I finally gave in and drove back home only to find Aarons car still parked outside the house. I was angry.Silently, I made my way to the door and with.