.? I knew that wanting to be hit was definitely not what most girls wanted, butthe feelings I had were so strong within me I knew I could not resist t...em,even if they were a little weird.?? I remember the first time I tried it-spanking myself ! The thoughts had been there for a while, and for a time I washappy with just having fantasies. Eventually, this wasn't enough and I knewthat I had to try it out. The opportunity came when I had the house to myself,and I decided to use a wooden spoon with. . "Du hast Recht ... ich liebe es ein M?dchenzu sein ... ich will nicht mehr als Mann leben!"Dann erz?hlte ich alles ... auch das ich die Hormone tats?chlich nehmenw?rde und mich die Ver?nderungen dadurch gl?cklich machen w?rde ... dasmeine Psychologin mehr als nur ?berzeugt ist, dass ich wirklich einetranssexuelle Frau ... alles sprudelte aus mir raus ... sogar dass icheinige Jungs in der Uni ganz s?? finden w?rde!"Bitte halte mich nicht f?r einen Spinner Sara ... ich wei? doch auchnicht. So i manage to sit up on the seat and turned so he could see my ass. Next thing i felt his hand on my ass and said that's nice. I was like glad you like. He said sometime i have to hit that, i giggled. but right now dear, i want a blowjob. I said ok, lets see it, thinking he wouldn't but he pulled out a hard cock that was about 7-8 inches. He said i gotten him hard and needed a release. I said you don't mind me being a guy in womans clothes going down on him? He said this would be a first but. This went on for years. Roni was married at the time and her husband obviously didn't know about this little game we were playing. A few times Roni and I had run into each other where she met my girlfriend at the time and I had met her husband. He took an instant dislike to me, it was obvious. In retrospect I suspect he was reading her FM Messenger account. Fast forward to the middle of 2019 and Roni's husband leaves her for another woman. A coworker, that they have both known for years. Roni.