.but I still needed to restrain myself from being overly curious about anything personal. It was more about life in general. I desperately wanted to l...an over and kiss her. Her lips were full and purposely designed for long deep kisses. I controlled myself. But we eventually began talking about personal matters. When she asked me if I had a boyfriend I thought that this was the time to at least open myself. I could not lie. "I'm a lesbian," I told her in a soft tone of voice. "I kind of. Will you agree to alittle experiment? If it turns out the way I expect it to, then you agree tolisten to what I have to say, and if it doesn't, I'll never mention the topicagain" What experiment?" I asked, suspicion surfacing in my mind."When I first realized that I wanted to be a girl rather than to have a girl,I decided that the only way to find out for sure was to dress like a girl. Ihad never done it before, and it took some doing to get my hands on someclothes. I bought some clothes from a. “He knows, doesn’t he?” she giggled as Niras grinned.“Yes, he does, but if he blabs he’ll be in for a world of pain,” Morgana replied also with a grin.“That secret is locked away until you are ready to tell the world,” I chuckled.“No buying anything until after the birth either, John, because I know you’ll opt for blue or pink stuff,” Róisín admonished me with a laugh.“Yes, dear,” I chuckled.“So who’s the big guy?” Niras asked looking at Tu’tar.“Bodyguard and friend now,” I chuckled.“I am. The people, including most of the children, finally understood how dangerous the crossing was, and they all took it seriously, this time.Jasper hated to waste the time, but he declared the next day a holiday and let everybody rest up from the grueling work and tension of the crossing. Two families decided that Grand Island was far enough for them. They felt that there was just too much danger in the trip and they were far enough west to escape the ravages of the civil war. Jasper wished them.