” I said out loud. I lit a cigarette, popped the straw into my wine and had a long slurp. I felt calmer. The butterflies had gone and I was now l...oking forward to whatever lay ahead, both tonight and the future. I reached onto the vanity unit and grabbed my body spray. Alyssa Ashley musk. A totally delicious scent and sprayed myself all over. “Mmmmm I smell like a little piece of heaven.”I got up and picked the suspender belt off the bed. I placed it around my waist the wrong way around. Apparently death isn't as much fun as it used to be. "Hey, there's Steve. What is he wearing?" On our way to him, I used my baton to lift skirts and split open some sexy ass cheeks to confirm she was not wearing a thong. "Is Steve naked too? I can't make out what his costume is, but it looks painted on. Look! His little dongle is painted too."I noticed Sara's panty had adjusted itself as she walked, much to her annoyance. Ignoring it, she commented, "Oh, I get it. That black square on his chest. "As usual Peter mumbled a good morning behind his paper.My eyes fell on Carmen and she looked really good. She rose and went to the fridge and I could see that she had dressed quite moderate. She was wearing a blue tank top, that emphasized her bust and her wasp like waist but didn't show much cleavage. Her tight dark blue jeans accentuated her firm buttocks. She was barefooted and wore sunglasses too, high up above the hairline on her forehead. I began to feel a throbbing in my groin but told. You think and you’ve said it once in rage, that I’m out looking for sex, but you’re wrong it’s worse than that. I’m looking for love. Tonight I am home and though I’m here in body, my mind is elsewhere. We watch a film and it distracts us from the misery we both know exists. The film we’re watching is sentimental towards the end and it just extenuates how unsentimental I feel towards you. You’re my friend, I trust you with my life but I don’t like how I hurt you with my inability to love you.