How had I got into such a terrible mess. I still had a good month before I could leave this world. To my consternation I however did find some solace ...n sucking the dummy and found I could eventually go to sleep. The next day mother came instead of John and before doing anything asked, "Are you going to be a good girl today?"I smiled at her and nodded my head. I was then released from my cot and restraints and put into a clean diaper. Again my overnight diaper was very wet and had become so. Raj took out a Pepsi in bottle from the front deck and quickly mixed a pill in it and gave it to sultana madam Sultana madam took it and began drinking it without doubting anything and we three continued talking with her casually.after some 10 minutes i saw her sweati9ng a bit and she asked me –Sultana- I am not feeling well boys … getting my head is heavy… did u boys do something to pepsi? Soham and Raj started laughing and I told her- madam it’s all right there is nothing to feel bad about …. The refrigerator didn't hold a houseful of mold, so someone had been there recently. Even the milk wasn't spoiled.There was even a six-pack of beer — crappy beer, to be sure — but beer nonetheless. I pulled one out and sat down on the couch. The answering machine read zero so Julie must have erased them. I hope she listened to them first. One or two might not have been from her or Belinda.Who was I kidding? Well, Danni might have called, I thought with a chuckle. I decided to head into the city. All it said was the name of a pub and a time.It was a Thursday night and Leela was on another evening shift and the little one was at her grandparents for a couple of days, the timing was perfect.I slid into the booth across the table from her she wore a leather jacket and a blue and red striped shirt that hugged those curves and I could not wait to see how tight the jeans she was wearing were.I ordered a beer and she sipped a glass of wine as we made small talk.“for the record” she said. “this.