Anywhere to get away from Jordan for a few hours. But no, he wasn't pleased about my suggestion that we leave Jordan and go anywhere else, it seemed t...at Derek would rather spend time with his brother than with his best friend and I was deeply hurt by that, Derek was the best friend that I had ever had, he was also the person that I'd shared my first remotely sexual experience with. Yet this seemed not to matter to him now that his brother was back home.The first week of the holidays I spent. I said I can’t be in a relationship because I am very good at screwing them up.She said even she doesn’t want to be in a relationship but feels strong desire to be with me. She said to be with her until I get bored of her. I didn’t understand what she said. I asked her if she is feeling lust for me. She replied that she wants a guy who can fulfill her desires. I didn’t even understand at that time also. I said I wanted to leave as this conversation is not happening anymore.Then she said I just. She said she was going to look on line for a job tomorrow. I told her to be very careful if she went out to interview, that there are some mean folks out there. Well the next evening at the supper table she told me that she had a couple of interviews tomorrow. I asked what type of jobs are they? Waiting tables is all she has ever done and with her friendly personality she has always made good money. She said one waitress job and the other is modeling. I told her good luck . Well that next. I haven't spent a whole day wanting someone so much in ages. Maybe never. I did all I knew how to do except take off my suit and spread my legs." He's concerned about me and you. We'll get him over it. He's going on a trip Wednesday, so maybe you'd better come over tonight."She glowed. "You're serious?" Yes. If you strike out, we can study." I struck out yesterday, ruining my record. Maybe I can find the leprechaun."We both sat with Tyler at lunch and were JoNell free. I wondered what she was.