Smile back to sleep.Eyes snap open. Stomach dropping flash of fear in high school. Inner voice telling me I was a coward.A little more awake. Was it c...wardice, or a lack of imagination on how to get out of the safe space of jocks and cheerleaders?Shiver. Wait ... something is reassuring. Body heat. Sound of calm breathing. Such a rare sound for me. Sure, I was sexually active in high school, but never slept with anyone for more than a few minutes. Not much better when more active in college,. I'll be back afterschool." Ok. Bye." Bye." There was a quiet popping sound, and the brief image of a smallcloud of smoke, and he was gone."Cute." she half grinned. She knew the theatrics were an attempt todistract her from what she had just learned, and it wasn't working.There was a knock at the door, and Aoi poked her head in. "Oh, good...you're up." She stepped into the room, wearing an embroidered bathrobeand carrying another. "You were too tired last night, but we can giveyou a couple of. The trainers went back to studying, sleeping or went to the cafeteria. It would be at least an hour till the first would be finished.We talked briefly with Captain Meech and found much the same thing happened for his Slavic recruits. The African and European contingent would be next. Then both America and Japan would give us troops to fight with. It was the Arab states that still opposed the Tandra. They were among the people that had the most to gain from the adoption of Tandra culture and. I didn’t know what to do. I went to her.Me: Mom, be calm. It’s ok..be calm..Then I went out and sat in the hall. She came out after 15 minutes and sat next to me. She couldn’t look into my eyes.Me: Mom!Mom: Yes Raj, I know what you are going to ask. I know you are 19 and by now you must be knowing about sex.Me: Hu yaa.Mom: You know Raj, your dad is having an affair and he has neglected me.Me: What you are saying, mom?!!!! I can’t believe you.Mom: Yes Raj, I never let you know this because that.