I got a phone call from Anne letting me know she would be late home that night, as she was calling in on 'Spike' as she was having "end of the world p...oblems".Anne arrived at 'Spike's unit to find her still in tears her eye make up streaked down her cheeks and her eye's red, once inside Anne started to try and calm her down as 'Spike' went through her problems. They sat together on the sofa Anne's arm round her as 'Spike' rested her head on her shoulder, eventually the sobs subsided but the. He told me that for the prior eight or nine years that I’d known him that I was the one that didn’t want children. Later that day, he told me that with my bad memory, it was a good thing that we didn’t have children. He told me that I’d probably kill them by starving them.“The prior year 2016, we had agreed to go to Europe in April for a week’s holiday. I was hopeful that the trip might mend our relationship. On April 4, when I was packing to go, he asked me about what bathing suits I was. She came over to the bed when she realized I was awake and kissed me on the forehead. "Time to get up, and good morning, schatje (Dutch for honey). The following day I had to leave for Spain. I took her out to dinner and nothing untoward happened after that. From then on I have always had fantasies about what could have happened. I am now going to turn the clock forward 41 years. I am now over 60 and nearly ready to retire. I decided that I would buy a home in Holland. I had lost contact with. From that point, till the time to leave, they own my body and I should do whatever they ask, however they ask for it.That I should just let them do whatever they want to satisfy themselves with my body. And as weird as it might seem, I have enjoyed being with people more after I began following the golden rule. But hey, as long as I got what I wanted, I didn't mind doing whatever, and being any body's mistress. So, being with a sensitive man like guruji was the best thing that could happen..