"Okay then," she nodded, "I'm going to rustle up something for us to eat. Finish whatever it was you were doing, get cleaned up, and then come downsta...rs when you're ready. Don't make me come back up to get you do you hear me?"I nodded like an eager puppy and watched as she left the room. Once she had gone, I collapsed onto the floor with relief and rolled onto my back. Holy shit, that had been way too close for comfort. Idiot. I took a long slow deep breath as my heart thundered away in my. But itwas all a sham, and the emptiness in my soul only grew greater. I want tobe the woman I am inside, not just have some of the mannerisms of one. Iwant to be one of the girls screaming in the audience, not the singeronstage at whom they are screaming."I tried, Augie, I really tried to overcome it. I even put my career onhold and joined the army in the hope of making myself into the ?real man'I was supposed to be. But it was no use. And so I resumed singing,becoming wealthier and wealthier. She always used to wear saree and I used to stare at her hips and sometimes I get lucky and get see a small cleavage, since she was very close to my mother I didn’t make any move on her. The days passed one day her husband went out of station and David asked if Julie can sleep in our house for a day. My mother agreed and said my mom and Julie will sleep in my room and I should sleep in Julie’s house. I thought I can look at Julie’s good cleavage at night but missed the opportunity. I went to. He is afraid that someone might get ahold of the footage and see what he has coming in.”“The competition must be fierce,” the detective jokes.Malcolm answers in a less than joking manner. “Oh, it is.”“Is the good doctor’s security that lax then?” Lee asks.“He’s a bit paranoid,” the man answers then his tone becomes jokingly, “but just don’t tell him I said that.”“Did you know the security guard on duty last night, Tracy Markum?” Lee continues, ignoring the joke.“Not that I can recall,.