I swallowed a few as he picked up a wet cloth and cleaned off the dirt, being incredibly gentle. He walked over to my fridge and looked inside. He fin...lly comes back with the frozen peas bag and rested it against my knees. “There, that should help with the swelling and the bruise,” he said, as he continued to hold onto it. “Thank you,” I said, awkwardly. After a few moments of awkward silence, he cleared his throat. "So, did you mean the door to the right or the door to the left?” I gulped with. He took a swab and took a sample. he slowly removed the cold metal speculum which had been causing me much pleasure. he sat it down and inserted to of his fingers into me and i lost controll, i was melting from pleasure. he felt around and withdrew his fingers and explained he was now going to measure my heart beat in orgasm. he called in the nurse apparently called wendy and she smiled at me and put the stethoscope in her ears and lay to cold metal on my heaving breasts. dr jackson sat on the. When I got downstairs again, she was looking very snug in her robe, sitting on the sofa drinking champagne and listening to an old Carpenter's C.D."Hi" she said as I poured myself another drink, "Come and sit here" and she patted the couch beside her."This has been your retreat hasn't it, your escape from reality?"I'd never really thought about it like that before but she was right, it had been a retreat for me."Yes, I suppose it has been, it still is" Have I spoilt it?"I put an arm around her. It is well known that I have a lot of girlfriends, all legal, and their disappearances could cause trouble. But I knew to make sure that they are also linked to plenty of people, and that girls who I don’t know but are linked to them disappeared as well. There simply was no proof, except for the speculation, but if girls I didn’t know disappear, there is pretty much nothing to support the speculations, wouldn’t there? And that’s how I got through day by day, using people to brand others to save.