. let's just say it would raise more than a few questions that I wanted to avoid. So instead Alpha was using her email friendships with physicists to ...elp the scientific community along with the theory and math and component designs needed to get there on their own. When that occasionally proved to be too slow, she would occasionally submit a letter or paper for peer review that provided the necessary data and theory, though papers were very difficult at the moment since she lacked a human. I leaned in and kissed her forehead. She unhid her face and we both leaned in for a kiss.She lay on her back and I climbed on top. We tore each other's shirts and pants off. We made out rolling around in our bras and panties.I took my time to admire her body before fully undressing her. I felt her breasts and kissed her abs. I made eye contact with her when I started to remove her bra in case she didn't want me to. I kissed her nipples and gently tugged on them. I started to remove her. Sheila stroked my bottom a couple of times and then she began to spank me with her hand – gently at first and then quite a bit harder as she warmed up.After a couple of minutes, Sheila complained that her hand hurt and said that if I was serious I wouldn't mind if she used her hairbrush instead would I. She then reached for her hairbrush which was lying rather conveniently within her reach.‘Are you ready for this?’ She asked. And then, without waiting for my response, she really started to. It would also hurt her even more when the final explosion came as come it certainly would. She could not bear to go through that anguish and misery again. She could never ever again trust someone as she had trusted Gwen and so she must not under any circumstances allow herself to get into that position again nor must she ever lead someone into that position where she might let them down. After everything she was making a success of her life even if it still was bittersweet and she just had to.