"Elspeth was now looking embarrassed, even a little contrite. "Laura," she said in a quiet, halting voice, "I didn't mean to hurt you. I just had to m...ke you see that you were wrong." Elspeth, don't apologise," said Laura firmly. "When you think someone's wrong, you argue your corner and never give up. That's what I've always tried to teach all my students. And as for hurting me, you haven't at all. My colleagues were right; I see that now. I was bound to find that cleverer student one day, and. Never mind." They are all pigs," she smiled. "Give them foie gras and they wanthamburger."I smiled. "Thank you." Room 413, enjoy your night."I got upstairs, and wanted to call someone. I started to dial Lisa,but stopped. I felt like this was somehow her fault. I don't knowexactly why. She had no idea Kenny was going to be like this. But Iwouldn't be here, across an ocean if it wasn't for her. I wouldn't bein a dress and heels either. I just felt like she would have nothinguseful to say. So I. Over the next few days I deliberately avoided Sudha, saying I was quite busy. I knew that she wanted to try her new seduction techniques on me. I just wanted to get her all heated up after 2 weeks, she invited me over to lunch, her daughter was out. My jaws dropped as I entered the house. She was wearing nice make-up, for the first time after her husband’s death, and draped in a fully transparent yellow sari, low neck sleeveless blouse that accentuated her ripe melons, and a low hip sari. Her. I just want to sleepI'm so tiredI can't sleep, I lay in bed,my mind writhing over everything,and yet nothing.I hug my panda teddy tighter and try to ignorethe intimidating shadows that drape my room,my room?Mine yet not mine,my sanctuary, but constantly intruded,a prison with no bars but of my own construct.Only while the world sleeps can I be free,Hmm, a full moon tonight.Its slivery glow lightens my heavy soul,Its strength holds the whole world in its sway,Its light holds my whole world in.