It's not sobad, I told myself, girls do this all the time. Girls do this all the time,and I'm posing like a girl, so it's all an act. It's okay, I kep... tellingmyself.Then I was plopped into a chair. Liz deftly unbuckled the heels and Tammystarted spreading a sweet-smelling lotion onto my legs. "This will help keepthe hose from running and make it look nice and shiny in the photos," shetold me. Tammy massaged lotion up and down each leg and into the soles of myfeet. Then she made me stand up and. Tor ki shomoy gayan aache! Barite aaj keu nei, bhebechhi dupure kheye-deye aaj onek shomoy niye tor saathe moja korbo. Aar tui ekhoni ki shuru korli. Tui Jemon ebhabe Lungi pore aamar pachha kole neye Moja paash temni amio Petticoat pore tor kole boshe khub moja pai. Pachha-gude tor Linge’r ghashay aamoro khub aanondo hoy. Kintu Aamar paachha niye dapa-dapi-te tor moja khub tara-tari hoye jai, tui maja kore aamar sharir tatiye diye, netiye parish. Kintu aamar sharir khub garam hoye pore.. She said the k**s had swimming on the Friday afternoon & would be knackered afterwards so we should be right. Thursday night rolls around & we haven't spoke about it yet, we're lying there & I asked are you getting excited yet? She said no that she had other things to think about before she worries about that. I said fair enough & left it (again). I didn't sleep that much that night I was playing it in my head over & over, almost scripting in my head how it would play out. Friday lunchtime I. She opened the envelope and began to read the Meat Notice. It said "Jessica Kast your State Meat Lottery Number [BB227MN] has been called, you are hereby ordered to report to the designated meat processing plant in 24 hours to prepare you for tomorrows live spit roast barbecue. You know all the rules and consequences, if you do not show up as ordered" As Jessica's mother read the notice, Jessica's heart sank in to her belly. She was too young to die she wasn't even 18 yet. She had only just.