Walking I could not help it, I was thinking of tomorrow, thinking of following the kids down there again, to watch, to masturbate as I watched. I caug...t myself in my sinful desires and went straight to Chapel. I knelt and prayed, I prayed right through supper and was still praying when Vespers started. My desires that I had, I knew were wrong for the life I had chosen. And I knew that I would have this battle in me for a long, long time. How many other Nuns felt this way? Who could I talk to?. The wife came over to give me the key and tell me the things she wanted me to do while they were away. Bring in the mail and paper and water the plants she had put by the sliding glass door in the den. I had done this for them the past few summers, so I knew all the stuff she wanted done. She paid me like five dollars a day for what took me five or ten minutes to do.I was happy with that, but not near as happy knowing that now me and Jason had somewhere to go and continue our games without the. ”“I don’t fancy any woman for now; none at all, sir. Is that normal?”“For a boy your age, it is normal. Once you change and become a man in a few years, you will find yourself newly interested in many young women, but interest in sexual joining is not the same as looking for a life partner. You have to pay great attention to the difference, for it can make your life either a pleasure or a misery.”They were moving into the fisher village, and the boy peeled off to return to his sentry duties as. . Low and behold at 7pm i found out .. In brief id done exactly what was asked by Carol of me .. I had worked all Saturday afternoon sorting Josie's wiring.. Remember i had not volunteered i had got home from work on Friday evening and was told by Carol as soon as i got home from work Saturday lunch time i was to go round and sort it out. I wasn't asked by Josie and i found out Josie hadn't asked anyone.. It had been mentioned in passing it seemed in Carols ear shot Josie needed more space in.