" Have you tried?"I stopped to think for a moment."Yes, once this morning just before you came the last time. I tried to tuck all the feelings I was g...tting from you away someplace else, but I couldn't do it." Hmmmm..." was all Izzy said, and we went back to eating breakfast for a while.As I ate, I could feel the determination in her, also a sense of protectiveness.We had nearly finished eating, when she stopped and set her fork down across her plate."You know... hiding those feelings away. The girls went upstairs talking and giggling. I had an odd feeling in my stomach, and it wasn't the cake. I walked into the kitchen where mom was cleaning up a little.I sat down and sighed really big."What is it honey? Girl problems?" Is it that obvious Mom?" Maybe, I can help you honey?" she said sitting down."If I explain this to you, all you will do is slap me again," I responded."Really!" She smiled."Yeah, this is one of those moments," I said."You are a smart young man. I know whatever you. ! “It was obvious he choked on the words. She could see his Adam’s Apple bob as he swallowed several times before he could continue. “What else did you let him do to you?”“Please, Kevin! I don’t want to talk about it.” Even on the small screen of her phone, she could see the beads of perspiration on his forehead.She felt cum on her cheek and casually wiped it off. She felt out of body, detached. She glanced at the driver. He leaned back in his seat. His eyes were partially closed. A smile. Grinning because he can't have heard this expression before I explained,"I'll slap you." Oh," he answered, "I feel drained, if it's ok I'll go, but thanks forbeing cool about my secret." I was devastated, I wanted him more thananything, I felt disgusted with myself for not telling him my secret, butI needed to talk to my sister and my therapist, my mind was in turmoiland at this moment I hated myself, loathed myself, I could ease his painbut didn't have the guts!We got off the bed and my arms.