“I don’t know,” she said softly, “I just don’t know.”“Cal, it’s easy,” I said, “just be yourself. Look, you have these two burning...ambitions right?”“Yes, you know I do.”“And, if you don’t achieve either of them, or even if you only achieve one of them, how many people will die as a result?”“None,” she said, crestfallen.“So,” I continued, “it’s not a life ending tragedy if you don’t become a great opera star?”“I suppose not, no,” she agreed.“Then what if you do all the training, and spend a long. ’ ‘Maybe one day – right now I need a drink’I got her a drink and we sat down in the corner and continued chatting and I kept on about what she had meant earlier and eventually she told me. A few years ago she met a black guy who was very well endowed and she always imagined what it might be like with two such guys, when she saw the two in the pool she just thought about how she missed her black lover and when they paid so many compliments she found herself unable to resist.‘I was very pleased. She told herself that she was protecting him from bullying but they continued to tease and harass him anyway.Billy, Damian, and Elbert had introduced her to so many kinks. She had never swallowed after oral sex with her husband. Now, she gargled with Billy’s spunk and blew bubbles with it while they laughed at her pretty face covered in sweat and spunk. Melanie had spent twenty minutes on her make-up before they came over. They loved to see the makeup run down her face from her tears and to. They were a Death Metal group who’d originally come from Norway but had now settled in East London and bore a remarkable resemblance to Snow White’s Seven Dwarfs as illustrated by Arthur Rackham. To be honest, she and I were never really the best of friends. I think there might have been some sexual tension between us. I considered myself to be Crystal’s primary lover after Mark and I think Madeleine might once have believed that she occupied that role. Whatever the reason, she was never.