Then, he gives out little hurts that cut deep and leave Us broken and wounded with the certain knowledge that he no longer cares. It is this that I ca...not fix." Our chest rose and fell in a heavy sigh. "She needs a safe place to heal. Here is no good - there is pain for Her when She remembers this place. We cannot go home and we must not be left to Ourselves." How about I take you with me?" Nathania asked valiantly. "I can take Her to a place that will hold no memories and may keep Her mind. I decided to tell him the entire truth. If I'd analysed it, I'd have realised that I was trying to push him away, but I didn't think about it that hard. The impulse hit, and I just started talking."You once asked me to tell you the other things I was keeping from you, from the game. Games." He nodded, I noticed in my peripheral vision. "Do you still want to know?"When he nodded again, I took a deep breath. "The only things relevant to you are at the Landsmeet. So, I'm going to talk like it was. "I hate to tell you this," Atwood said, "but it looks like a real hornet's nest was swarming and you just stepped in and knocked the nest down. You have likely saved Howard's life, although that could be debated, and he has likely saved yours, too. When Howard was suddenly faced with the loss of his ranch, it raised such a cry of public indignation that Santos backed down, or at least the county backed down, and of course the bank helped Howard with the loan." Atwood," Gail finally relaxed. When he couldn't, he started to become very angry. I guess I had reallyupset him on Saturday."Look, Johnny," I told him in a calm tone. "The doctors were wrong when Iwas born. They thought I was a boy, but I wasn't. I only looked like aboy."Johnny was staring at me, stunned! I'd basically just come out astransgendered to my school, even if I had worded it to seem like more of amedical condition.I looked around the cafeteria at the people who were watching us. Not manyof them even seemed.