My dick got instantly hard and I felt a bit at ease, so then I pushed it deeper. It felt absolutely amazing. It only took a few strokes till I was cum...ing obscenely all over the bedspread.Later that week the girlfriend announced that she was going on vacation and would be gone for a week. I instantly got a craving in my ass for some real cock. Once she was gone I tried using my cam a few times on some gay sites but no one wanted to see a chub jerking off. So I found a site for chubs and chub. The outgoing Head was taking early retirement due to stress, which was a sign of what things were like there, but I felt up to it. They’d get internal applications from staff who were already part of the failed regime, and not much more. I am too young for a Headship, normally, but it didn’t cost anything to apply did it? So I did.I made a nuisance of myself with my own Head, over any issue I could latch onto, and she recommended me for the job to get me out of her hair. To my surprise I got. Guests had been checking out in droves and Lisa had given me her cell number before I left her room. She texted me to say that all of her appointments for the rest of the weekend had cancelled and she was hoping the three of us could spend some more time together."I didn't have a clue you were lesbian, Jess," Lauri said as she became very intimate with me."Lauri, I've always been attracted to you to, but we never got around to talking about it, but that could change you know," I said smiling at. It's hard to be a woman, you are learning itfirsthand."He then asked what he was really afraid of. Jeff shed a tear andexplained, "I feel like I'm losing myself if I continue being a girl.The more I'm in female clothes, the less I want to return to being aboy. I'm a girl more than I'm a boy, I can't help but be a girl. I'mtrying hard to fight it, but it won't stop. I need to be a girl, I keeptrying to be a boy but I'm becoming more and more of a girl. It hurts tofight it, I'm not sure what I am.