I was relieved! But then wondered, “But what if… what if… he’d asked you to stay?”Addie kissed me and hesitated before answering me, “Hone...tly? …at the time I don’t know what I’d have said. That scared me later what I might have done at that moment… but when he said what he did, it was the right thing to say and… I gave myself to him the rest of the night. We talked, a lot; and made love, a lot; I learned a lot about Samuel.”I wanted to know, “Like?”She took a deep breath before answering me. " What?" I grinned at him. "You looked at a calendar or something?" No!" He made a face. "Maybe. So what? I wanted to know." You're weird." Anyway, so that's like 28 boys..." And girls." Yeah. That's 28 boys and girls and there's, I don't know, like 75 of each or something," Josh said. "So probably we won't even have to do it until next year." Or the year after," I nodded. "That would be cool. As long as I'm not like the last one!" Yeah!" Josh grinned at me. "Being last would suck." Being first. Unho ne muze utha liya aur bedroom me le gaye. Hum jaldi me darwaja bund karna bhul gaye. Unho ne muze khat pe dal diya aur mere upar chadh ke meri chut me lund pel diya aur mere dono hath ko kas ke pakad kar muze berahmi se jor jor se chodne lage. Muze bhi maza aa raha tha. Unho ne 20 minute tak choda fi wo meri chut me zad gaye aur mere upar hi let gaye. Main bhi unse lipati rahi. Tabhi maine darwaje par meri sas ko dekha. Unho ne apna peticot apni chunchiyon ke upar bandha hua tha. Wo under. It is very difficult to break the bonds of slavery when you’ve completely owned the psyche of low self esteem, that timely process to mold us into conformity. I was cultured from the very first grade to fear mortality, the other most natural thing humans do in their lifetime. I was sure I was going to Hell even as shy as I was. Perhaps they had a special Hell for introverts.But it seems I simply delayed that gauntlet. Somehow my life had opted to wait for the dairy experience. I’d arrived on.