My heavy limbs drag me back, always back. It takes every ounce of strength I have not to drive into the nearest tree, stay on my side of the road, or ...ot go flying off a bridge. I think the worst is when people tell me that they envy me, or that they wish they had a marriage like mine. I want to shake them, to slap them. I want to tell them what it feels like to be trapped by a room full of toys and a pile of towels on the bed. I want to tell them that marriage is nothing but a Sisiphean task.. I had goosebumps imagining his discomfort while the house nurse changed dressings. It didn’t matter that I had warned him about the Down Hill Mountain Challenge. That I thought he was too young for that sort of thing. I was trying to be protective not make him lose confidence. I had so much empathy for him.I tried to busy myself in my brother’s kitchen and drown out the sounds from Terry’s bedroom while the nurse tended to him. Damn, she seems to be being awfully rough with him. The urge to. "Now what?" I asked, unable to take the silence any longer."Well Dave, do you wanna play with her for a while?"The second guy had been silent during most of the day, but now it was his turn to speak up. "Sure. OK, take it all off."As hard as I tried not to, I removed my blouse and pushed my skirt down. They were still behind me, so neither could see me except for my ass. I looked straight ahead and waited for the inevitable. It didn't happen."Pick up your clothes and start walking again."I. My head was just going all over the place. As long as The First was still around, nothing felt right in my life. I just couldn't imagine how Xander was able to res*st such pressure, living under the same roof as all of us girls. It had to kill him." I'm sure it did." Willow said, having never really thought of Buffy being into girls before or questioning her sexuality."Only for a while," Kennedy added, shocking both Willow and Buffy. "A few of the girls did feel sorry for him and approached.