I pushed the throttle of the love machine forward another few notches. In my head I could imagine a train engineer in loco 1751 of the Bay Colony pull...ng a string of coal cars over to Otis AFB. I wanted to give Ella seventeen hundred and fifty one horsepower of hard rough sex, the equivalent of over one and a third million watts, those sixteen pistons in that 567C engine, those fucking ten inch pistons with close to a ten inch stroke, the engine opened up and blasting its deep throat exhaust.. We took Dulcie in, you know..." She told me a little of her background." Probably not very much. Anyway, Sara was killed by a falling television set someone chucked over a balcony. They never did find out who'd done it. I ... came apart. It was Dulcie that looked after me until I came back to sanity. But for you, it's as though you've been bereaved twice, isn't it?"Paul thought about that. "Exactly like that." Do you know what you're going to do now?" Well ... it doesn't look as though I'm. One of my older brothers friends was talking about jerking off all the time and so at my first opportunity I went into my mothers room got out a playboy and some lotion and found myself hard. I stroked for a bit and came on the page of my step fathers playboy magazine. I imagine there is a psychologists field day here!I closed the magazine, gluing those pages together and put it back in the stack. I was wildly excited and mystified about what had just happened. I hadn't even had a wet dream. I could tell we were in the woods somewhere from the smell of the pine trees and how quiet it was. There wasn't a man made sound anywhere close.‎9/‎18/‎19 They took me inside what I figured was a cabin. There were others already inside, it sounded like several. With the six guys from the van, four who confronted me the driver and lookout in the passenger seat, I was guessing about at least a dozen guys. They were all laughing and talking about getting some payback for all the shit they had.