.. ten months. Do you think you can have everything planned by then?”“I need to call my mother!” CeeCee jumped out of bed and ran to the phone. ... could see my deposit running down the inside of her leg. God, I loved that girl! I’d marry her. We’d adopt one or a dozen kids. However many she wanted and I could afford. I was getting a good raise at the Guthrie and was promised several roles in the next season, including Henry Tudor in Richard III. After that, it didn’t look like I’d have any. Many of us already know each other within the district, butthere will be many people from other areas that we will get a chance tomeet. Then there will be meetings with our district manager andregional manager to finish off the work portion of the day. Saturdaynight is the formal dinner." Stacey noticed my slightly worried look."What's wrong? Are you getting cold feet?" She looked genuinelyconcerned. "Not cold feet," I said, "I know I am safe with you. It'sjust meeting Karen (our DM) and Irv. The fate's wordis always the last one. Mother died on December 24th. Mother's death wasan abrupt termination of all my expectations to convince her I was reallya girl in male body. My yearning to femininity had no chances anymore. Myfate was to live with my father, a man, an officer. I was expecting himto start his attack on me every minute while the last cordon protectingme against the brutality my mother was gone.Burial was set on December 27th because of Christmas. There was noChristmas this. Every day we drove to school together and as soon as school was over we went right home and right to a party. After a couple months of school Brent found a girlfriend named Nichole he fell for her hard and they dated about 5 months until one day I came home to the apartment and he was crying and upset,He told me she had dumped him for another guy. We decided to go get a case of beer and get drunk and watch movies. We polished off the case he had way more than I did and he started opening up.