Now, my mom and I get along really well. She's pretty open with me, more than some of the moms of friends of mine, and so I feel comfortable talking w...th her about just about everything. Even about what was beginning to cause me feelings of confusion and unease; I was beginning to be attracted to my brother, well, to Blake.She carefully explained that those feelings were fine, they were natural and that we weren't really related, not by blood. She also told me that Blake had talked to her about. "Actually, Glory — I think I'm ready to make a move on her, but I'm waiting ... for a signal of some kind that tells me she's ready." What kind of a signal are you waiting for exactly?" Something that tells me that she's as into me as much as I am into her. Maybe a touch or a glance, I'm not sure — but I think I'll know it when I see it."She got in when I had my eyes closed, so I don't know what she's wearing for sure; I assume it is a bikini of some sort.I saw her get up and walk towards me,. I am an extremely avid masturbator and I love edging my cock when the wife is out. But I really wanted to get naked with a guy, massage his naked body and stroke his cock and finger him till he came. I found a guy on Craigs who seemed Ok. He was a bit younger and was working on the road at the time, a repair guy of sorts. We met for coffee and both agreed to go directly to my home for a hot tub and naked massage. I was nervous when we arrived home and invited him in. I quickly popped 1/2 a. When I was recovering, he stayed almost oppressively close." I hadn't minded; I'd been afraid he'd be taken from me again if he left my sight. "But he still won't re-open our bond and I feel like he's avoiding me, if not physically, than emotionally. I don't know what to do," I finished in a painful whisper. It hurt to be shut out originally, but this was worse. He was where he was supposed to be, except for in my head. The ache was still in my chest and it got worse when he was physically.