"What? Are you serious?" Yea, Mom. You seemed so upset ... and so suspicious of Daddy. But it's really not his fault and he really, really didn't have...anything to do with this. And, I really do want him to be the first. But, I'd kind of like it if you could be here, so you'd know Daddy wasn't forcing me or anything." I wanted you here too, Brooke."Brooke stood frozen again. Then, of all places, she turned to Ronni."Are they serious about this?" I think so, Mommy Brooke." You really want me. Setting, his books down John took a seat on his bed and faced his closet, only to realize he was no longer in his room.'What the Fuck?'John pondered as he stared at the closet full of dresses and other girl clothing. He glanced around the room to see his posters were gone, only to be replaced by a shelf full of Cheerleading awards and a giant poster of sum 41. John shook his head to try and clear his thoughts, and as he blinked he was back in his own room, his hair seemed a little bit longer,. “He was just so cute when he was a kid,” Lexi rested her head on her hand and looked at me. “That combined with what he said just drove me insane. Plus he was dangling his innocence in front of me like a string in front of a cat. And damn did I want that string.” “Why are you telling her this?” I asked.“I figured she’d want to know more about you and your sneaky ways.”“Whoa don’t try and act like I’m some jackass who says whatever he needs too to win a girl’s heart. I meant what I said, to you,. The problem, it turns out, was that I am not really very good at anything other than killing people. I tried going to college, but it was no better than the high school I barely made it out of. The kids, and they were truly kids, were all at least 10 years younger than me. I felt out of place almost all of the time.After that I tried a succession of jobs, failed at all of them, and had finally settled into a meaningless job as a security guard. I worked the four to midnight shift at a large.