"It's a far too complex magic to decide when to just kill. What you are experiencing is the magic of life. The easier part of that magic is to kill, b...t you still have to learn to do life. But the most crucial thing for you to learn right now is to control your feelings. Which you will achieve with meditation — and perhaps you should stay away from Alexander and most certainly stay away from Vicdaen." No!" I protested. "Why?" You're hot for Vicdaen, and you don't know which one to choose", said. I pushed my messy bed hair out of my face, where the light sheen of perspiration was causing it to stick. At least Mike isn’t around to see this trainwreck. Mike is my boyfriend, whose sweetness always leads him to tell me how pretty I look, regardless of how I feel. Obviously he is blinded by love because this particular look was not what anyone would call “attractive”. Pushing these thoughts aside, I eagerly ran the water and stepped under the freezing spray. Ten minutes later, I wrapped. "I swallowed hard, "Calling me cowboy ain't helping any... that's the problem, I should be home helping move the herd down to winter pasture."We slithered out of the coach's party and drove uptown to a big building housing various sports including several racquetball courts. It looked easy on tv, but Debra ate my lunch and damned near killed me. Damn she was good and I was hooked.Years later, I had a building put up just for playing Racquetball and now there must be fifty or sixty in the valley. I go to bed and the only other people in the place are two guys. I wake up and someone is sucking my dick...”I almost had to laugh but asked, “Who’s the other guy?”“Cecil’s boss. He’s been painting apartments with him and they started hanging out.”At that time, Cecil came down the hall from the living room.“You won’t believe what just happened,” Cecil said. Ed and I just looked at him pretty much guessing exactly what happened. “She just sucked me off.”Once again, I explained how she came to be.