If you feel you are different thenyou are, but is the difference enough for you?"This is difficult. How can I say what I feel if it ruins Helen's lov...for me? Would Helen still love me if I was a male David? Andy toldHelen to give me space to learn who I was. If I tried to be moremasculine would she remember what Andy said? Was she doing this becauseof her chat with Andy?"I don't know," I answered, not really knowing how I was going to saythis. "I don't know what it is to be feminine or. My eyes were riveted on him as he turned to the bar to order a drink. His broad grin was answered with smiles flitting across the faces of the men standing by the bar. I could see at once that he was known here and well-liked, but I noticed that nobody made a move to accost him. ‘Evening sergeant,’ the potman greeted him. ‘Bruno, Benny, call me Bruno.’ ‘Sorry, force of habit. Been playing? See you ain’t got your guitar with you.’ ‘Yes, I sat in with Tubby Hayes and Victor Feldman at the. Day two of Chanctonbury 81 was looking up - or maybe just a bit hazy - already..."Daughter's boyfriend cut in, "OK, so you were lying in shit, getting stoned, I think we get the picture. How about you? Also in the dome?" Nah ... this is the story of how we met, remember?" I paused. "Actually, I hadn't been to sleep. Hadn't bought a tent, or a sleeping bag come to think of it - I'd hitched down so I was travelling light. Brought my guitar, of course - didn't go anywhere without it, those days -. ”He waited for me to say something. I just nodded. “Okay, but he is getting totally out of control. He needs help, professional help, and you know exactly what I mean.”“Not going to happen,” Dad responded.I just nodded again. “Then be warned. This is the end of it. He does anything else, anything at all, and I am history. I will pack my shit up and leave. How much longer do I have to live like this before I wake up some night with him coming after me with a knife or baseball bat.”“I don’t want.