I liked to kiss and I got into some pretty hot necking sessions where I almost let things get away from me, but I always managed to regain control.All...my good intentions went up in smoke on my eighteenth birthday. It was on a Friday. I was already in college and my sorority sisters took me out to a party to celebrate my birthday. We hit half a dozen parties and ended up at the Pi Kappa Alpha house where they had a kegger going. I wasn't used to drinking, but the girls told me not to worry, that. Oozing sunscreen out of the container as if oozing cum from my cock, unable to touch the parts of her that I so wanted to feel, the sexual excitement I felt massaging her was frustratingly anticlimactic. Oxymoronic in protecting my mother-in-law from sunburn with sunscreen when she needed more protection from me and my horny hands than from the hot sun. Once I passed that first awkward hurtle of rubbing my mother-in-law's back and the sides of her breasts, I wished that I could cup her pussy. Good and steadily growing. Also, working.“No, that’s not it either, mister. What I mean is, how do you do it?”“Do what?”“Change it so it doesn’t look like all the other OnlyFans pages.”“Ah.”“Yeah, ah. So. Who’ve you been seeing to teach you these dark arts?”I smiled. “Goo Gul and Yu Toob,” I said, trying to make them sound as much like names as possible.Lia nodded. “Oh those two. What do they do that I don’t... oh God! It’s bush, isn’t it. Bushes. They’ve got lustrously bushy little bushes?. ..I can't go on hurting you like this..."I can't talk, sorry. Bye."The phone's blank screen stares at me. A little bit of medispassionately steps back, folds its arms and sneers at the noises I'mmaking - ragged lungfuls of hurt; stupid slobbering uh uh uh uh sobs.He's left me. She's gone, walked out, to her sister's - her sister's! InLondon! Jay always hated London.It gets dark outside, but I don't bother with a light. I should be athockey practice, but I can't be arsed even to message Lorraine.