They turned and walked away, leaving me standing in the doorway of the hotel room. Jacques said, “Jan, Please stay. We have what we wanted. We can b... together now.”I said, “FUCK YOU, Jacques! I’ve lost my whole family. I have much bigger problems. Don’t call me.”I left and got a room at a different hotel. I knew there was no use going to what was my home. I peeled off my cum soaked panties and laid across the bed. I just cried ... cried at my stupidity ... cried for the loss of a man that. She is sitting on a couch, her slender, creamy legs crossed over another, bouncing to the cadence of some rock song that was playing from the speakers. We lock eyes and she gives me this grin as I approach the concierge desk.“How can I help you today?” asks the concierge. My head snaps forward.“W-what? Oh I’m sorry. I’m here to check-in,” I stammered, clearly distracted by the beautiful woman sitting on the couch.I fumble for my credit card and as I’m being processed I can feel the woman’s eyes. I just fall asleep where I sit!And so ... now I enter into this new season of my life unprepared for all the aches and pains and the loss of strength and ability to go and do things that I wish I had done but never did!! But, at least I know, that though I'm on the back nine, and I'm not sure how long it will last ... this I know, that when it's over on this earth ... it's over. A new adventure will begin! Yes, I have regrets. There are things I wish I hadn't done ... things I should have done,. I asked her shall we begin. She went to bathroom for fresh up and I followed her. She didn’t even mutter a word. I followed behind I she went inside bathroom I too went inside following her she told me to wait outside.She went inside I stood at she moved further to close door. I refused her she asked me why?I told I want to watch her. You can but give me some time about 2 min she said. I pleased her, you will so she agreed and told she would pee.I said it’s ok and I told she can even shit.