You ceased to do that a long timeago, it seems. But know this: I've never stopped caring for you. Istill love you even though you've been treating me ...ike this. And,just for the record, I'm not darkness-based. I'm shadow-based. Thereis a difference!" Fuming, Cal slammed his door shut and backed out ofthe parking space. "Good day." He then sped off like a bat out ofHell, desperate to get distance between the two, hoping that with thedistance, his pain would cease, along with being hugged by. I got scared and asked her plan of this meeting. We are just meeting for 2 days. She said “when I am with you I don’t want you to worry about money or anything”. I was relieved after hearing that because she did not have any other plan.I kissed her on cheek and went for shower and got ready to go out. She insisted to stay in hotel. We ordered food and had it. We had long conversation. Had little sexy conversation too. I was waiting for the kid to sleep, since the baby was crying whenever I kiss. We have become very close. I feel like a part of me is being taken away."By then, her tears were flowing. I hugged and patted, and whispered, "I know you love her and will miss her. So will I. I have never gone a month without her. She will miss us, too."We stretched out on the bed and I held her for a while. She took a deep breath and let it out slowly. "OK, I have to get myself together. Don't want to make it harder on her by having a crying fit." She went to the bathroom and put drops in her. I just don't know." I took a breath and added, "I mean, I've imagined what cross-dressing might be like, but this goes way beyond my wildest fantasies. It would be one thing if I looked like a guy in a dress, then it would be easy to give this up." I paused just long enough to take a breath. "The heck of it is that I am a knockout and that makes it a real bear to decide what to do."My thoughts drifted back to the previous day and I found myself wishing I were with Dave again. I knew I had.