I whimper softly, I want to touch him, but in this my needs are first and yet last."Lift up onto your toes," another whisper, but no less a command.I ...ift myself onto my toes and feel him push my arms back more. Then he rests his hands on my shoulders, pushing me down, again I know what he wants and lower myself. But I can not move far, my wrists are held above my head. I am bound in this position, unable to rest my feet flat on the floor, my arms held over my head. I feel warmth near my lips. I wasn't having any luck or making any progress on my endeavor. Ifelt like I was spinning my wheels. I needed a change. So, one night Iwrote this:WINDS IN CHANGE(Verse)I'm adrift on the sea of timeIn the doldrums of now and thenLike serving a sentence for a crimeI must have done way back when(Verse)Desperately going nowhere fastThe weather hadn't changed in daysMy sails lay flat against the mastMal a mar comes in many ways(Chorus)But there's something in the air tonightAnd it feels so rightAnd. . That’s the thing, you see ... We never talk about it. Ever. I didn’t know she liked it. Is only when I apply for the show that I tell her and... Martyna speaks over her, a big smile on her face. “I told her ‘I can’t believe we didn’t know this about each other ... We share everything ... But I was too scared to tell her, and she was too scared to tell me...”“Do you think about it often?” We check.Monika first, “Yes ... I think about it every time I masturbate...”Martyna, “I think about it. Everyone thought that was a great idea, except for me. My boss then said she had never seen a guy suck a guy off and wanted to watch. I still hesitated. They took my hesitation as just needing a little push.The other girl suggested we all get naked and then nature would take over. As soon as the girls had their tops off and boobs out, I was instantly hard. Everyone started pulling clothes off so I took mine also. All of the guys were hard. The girls commented that they had never seen so many.