.."A moment of rustling passed. Then Kara said, "What do you think Mark? Did the sun set an hour ago?" Oh, at least. I think we were hiking in twiligh... for quite a while. I thought it was just the darkness of the snowstorm... My sense of time is all messed up..." Mark, when should the sun have set?" Uh, just after 5 PM, I think."Kara gave a mirthful laugh. "Yeah. Well, the GPS is reading 1:53 PM now. It's a lot earlier than I thought. The fading light fooled me too. Hell, the sun must have set. How was I going to maintain a happy relationship when I'm hell bent on giving myself nothing but punishment?It's so sad that I let someone break me like this. Causing my life to turn upside down and make me hate life as well as myself. I can't even believe in myself anymore. I've lost the desire to create and bring laughter to others. I can't bring myself to want anything, to hope or even love.I don't deserve love anyway, not even love for myself. I did a horrible thing to someone else and. I have become so thin. What would she think of me, this shell I have become. Where is my shirt? My breasts almost nothing, flaps of skin against shiny ribs. Subsisting on coffee, cigarettes, an occasional carrot stick. I don’t want to eat, such an empty table. A place setting for one, the chair across from me stagnant. Is that really me? The self, the coil, the me. I am sickening. The steam is rising from the faucet now, framing my face in the mirror, a halo almost, filling out my face. I wipe. They told me I was their only ... they..."Hot tears streamed down the blonde teenager's cheeks as she put her hands in her face, her body shaking as she began to sob uncontrollably. It was finally too much for her ... finding out that she was pregnant, then finding out that her mother was pregnant, then finding out that her mother had been secretly sleeping with her brothers as well... ... Chris lied to me, Sarah thought bitterly. Again. He fucking lied ... he promised he wouldn't, not ever.