We were lost in each other. When Andi pushed me away firmly, I thought we were ready to return to cautious reality.“Dag, Cali is spending the night ...t Alex’s house. Will you stay with me tonight? Please.”“Andi…” It was what I wanted more than anything, and still I was so afraid that our relationship wasn’t ready. “Andi, are you sure? Once we do this we can’t go back. I love you desperately, but I don’t want to lose what we have.”“Dag, my darling. We don’t have to sacrifice what we have for what. ‘What do you love? , Say it!’ ‘Pain,’ I answered. The blows were coming faster and faster. ‘What do you want? SAY IT!’ They were moving to my buttocks. ‘More!’ The passing beverage cart jolted me awake. I stayed awake long enough this time to look around where I was seated. Across the aisle I spotted a cute guy. He was skinny with pretty white skin and curly brown hair. He was wearing a UCLA sweatshirt. Before I dosed off I smiled at him, and I think I might have blown him a kiss. My mind was. ” “So what the fuck…he just stands up and whips it out…says, hey let’s get it on?” “NOOOOOO,” this time it was Angie who was overly loud. “Oh you have the worst timing, woman,” she hissed as she tossed her towel to the sink counter. “Angie…did you have sex with him?” “Noooo,” she groaned, “at least not yet…or mostly, oh I don’t know! It’s none of your fucking business!” Cathy grabbed her by the arm and made her face her, a deadly serious expression on her face. “Did…you…fuck him?” “No,” she. Except that the shot that killed us all — maybe not there and then but — fucks sake — we were on foot and deep, deep, deep in bandit country — that shot was never was followed up. Probably a lone shepherd boy or some other fuck — happened to have an RPG to hand, had a go. Or so we reasoned as we salvaged what we could carry from the wreck, growing used to the lack of in-coming, knowing that soon enough everyone would know where we were. And how exposed we were going to stay...We reached some.