I only met her today and I know that.”“Then what do you suggest, if you’re so smart?!!?” she growled.“Oh yes,” I said sarcastically. “Wh...n imperiled fall back on Matt’s intelligence and then later use it as justification to blame him for something else. I ... have ... been ... wronged. You’re just not getting it. You’re asking a victim to bear the sentence for the crime. You’re asking me to throw away my happiness to make everyone feel better.”“That’s what adults do,” she said bluntly.“No,. I gave up, knowing I couldn't reach him and that he would never forgive me. I didn't blame him then and I still don't. I never forgave myself.I still remember what happened as if it were yesterday. I still cry myself to sleep sometimes even now, almost six years later. I get so lonely sometimes that I want to do something, go somewhere, be with someone, but I won't! I refuse to be happy, to enjoy my freedom while he is in jail. I put him there and if he has to endure being alone, so will I. It. Luckily, my grades were good enough, in spite ofmy carousing, to garner a more than decent position with a mid-sized firm down south, far from the place of my birth.Although I had but a few possessions to take with me, therewere enough to require me to rent a truck to carry them andto also tow my car along behind it on a dolly as I movedfrom lower Michigan to Atlanta.Having been down here several times during the interviewprocess, I had, with the company's help, found a decentapartment for not. I saw sparkles in his eyes, He totally was sold on my bod. He then told me to strip, I stripped for him.. Slowly.. I could see he was totally enjoying his view ;) He then handed me a half cup see through bra and a G-string and told me it was my costume for the autition and that if I passed I'd get 5 costumes, Bras and C & G Strings for 5days which I'd have to wear for work & BOY were the costumes hot.Obviously with a robe on top until i start the massage with the customer, then I would remove.