He thought about Shasta now, and about how they had met. Which had not been one of the most pleasant ordeal. It had been three months ago in a trainin... session.Worriers were grouped in sets of five and in the later years they would be put against each other in mock battles for more extreme training. Back then Mark had had another person he was in love with. It was his group captain Shamus.Shamus had been hotheaded and irresponsible at the worst of times and not much better in the good times.. We ended up cuddling and having that talk about needs and better offers." She sniffled. "I was trying to put it all into perspective with Brittney -- trying to resolve my dilemma. Then you brought up Natalie. It was pure guilt that made me react the way I did, Ben. You were so trusting of my word ... It hit me what a hypocrite I was being..." She held up her thumb and forefinger. "I felt this small. Then you apologized to me. I couldn't believe it -- YOU were apologizing to ME." I thought my. The other two were standing and watching, enjoying the show of bare legs and flailing feet.I skewered the sergeant first, right in the kidneys, kicked him aside and swung at the other standing horseman, slicing open his arm and chest. Then I yanked the would-be rapist up by his hair and drove my big blade all the way through him, striking bone as he howled. It would not come out so I left the bayonet in him and went after the man who had been holding her arms. I kicked him in the face and then. I'll tell you what was running through my mind when I came." What else?" I'll tell you how I touched myself. I'll tell you whether I used my fingers or a toy." And?" And I'll thank you."Session 17:"You've never stayed in a hospital, have you Lucy?" No." Well I have, and I can tell you - they don't let you have tissues near your bed. And if I jerked off myself, they'd find the wet patch in my hospital clothes, or in my bedsheets ... it would be really embarrassing. Do you understand?" Yes." I.