I inserted the plastic card into the video machine. A movie started. I ran through the movie program, Then I quickly stripped naked, slipped my high h...els back on, teased up my hair, freshened my lipstick, and set a condom and my grease on top of the video screen. Then I unlocked the door and sat back to watch some porn. I mostly watch straight, man/woman porn. Gay porn does nothing for me, because I don't see myself as a guy having sex with other guys; I see myself as a woman, and so I. The seconds lingered like hours, allowing me to fully cherish the most horrifying moment of my life. I thought I was going to be sick. I truly wanted to die, to die and be buried with my disgrace.The frown on her face deepened into a scowl. "Frankly, Davey, I do understand."She understood that the sweet baby boy she'd given birth to had grown up into a monster!But then I felt a finger trace up the full length of the bulge, tightening the fabric even more. A whole handful of fingers met twirling. Shortly after we had left the station, I turned to him, and in a very low voice, said, ‘James, I fear to admit this, but we were so hurried this morning that I forgot to put my bloomers on.’ He stared at me and gasped, ‘You mean…you…on the train…’ ‘What, James, you mistake me! What a scandalous thought. I simply wanted you to know.’, I replied. He surreptitiously looked at my lap, then glanced away out the window. I kept up this delicious torture for the balance of our travel. Several times an. Had I already blown it?Just as softly as I had spoken, she said, in a joking way, "Maybe I'm the one stalking you, big boy. You ever think of that?"I laughed, relieved. She didn't seem mad or scared, and as long as we could keep joking with each other, maybe I could get my foot in the door. "You would never have to stalk me, Mary. Say the word and I'll set up a pup tent on your front lawn."This was now uncharted territory. I was openly flirting with her, which I had never done before. At least,.