I needed to clear my head, but just as I had begun, a soft knock came at my door, and Melissa entered. She wore a big red t-shirt that covered her pan...ies, but immediately her presence brought with it that sort of musty smell she had back in her room. I stared at her, which sparked more memories of whatever she had been doing, as she went and sat on my bed. “Hey...” she said. “I'm... sorry you had to see that.”“I...” I began, “It's okay.”It wasn't exactly okay."We both know what you saw. It's. Didi gusse se mujhe dekhne lagi. Maine bhi didi ko aaj apni kuttiya banana ka soch rakha tha…Maine unka belan liya or unki chunchiyo ko belan se roti ki tarah belne laga…didi ne mujhe dhaka de diya…mujhe gussa aaya toh maine garam chipiya liya or gi laga ke didi ki chut main fataaak se daal diya wo chilane lagi. Bahar nikalo jaldi. Bahut jal rha hain,, main bhi than liya aaj didi ki rasoi main hi sabak sikhaunga.Maine chipiya nikala didi ki choot se…or ek side rakh diya.Didi ko gira ke pichwada. “Connor and I are still gonna stay best friends. This won’t change a thing as far as the four of us are concerned. I promise.” Her promise lasted about seven days. As much as our friends claimed to be uninterested in frivolous things like love and romance, it was obvious how much it pained them to be around one another after the breakup. They didn’t even really fight, there were just these constant, depressingly awkward silences. We’d all be having fun one minute, like always, but then their. I'm glad I shaved yesterday, and now I reach between and spread the wetness around my lips. I feel them swell as I do. No need to imagine much longer, but I slowly insert the middle two fingers and rub with my palm anyway.Just for a few moments I think of Tennyson doing that, reaching round from behind as she pressed herself against me and kissed my neck, while John stroked my left breast with one hand, and took my right between his lips.Only one of them here now, a pity in its way.I decide to.