" I'll be back I told Sam as I got up to walk away. I shook my head this is what I've been trying to avoid for the longest I needed and wanted to talk...to Ray he was my outlet when I couldn't talk to Mike or Danny. I found Ray at the bar talking to a few people. He looked at me and smiled I asked "Can we talk?" We made our way through the crowd out the back door "What's good baby girl?" he wrapped his arms around me and kissed my forehead. "I don't know what to do. I leave to get away but. I mean, I don’t know how,” he stammered, but I kissed him quiet.I pushed his shirt up and he let me this time. His muscular chest was warm as I ran my hands over his bare skin. He pulled at my shirt and I raised my arms to let him pull it off over my head. I didn’t have a bra on and his hungry gaze warmed me. I lay back to lift my hips and pushed my shorts and panties down. He helped me get my shoes and socks off, then stood to drop his own shorts.I was soaked, which was a good thing because he. In the carriage he sensed that I was nervous and tried to calm me, but I could feel his overpowering lust over that of his caring. I was excited and terrified; I had longed for this for so long but something held me back too.Once at his home we made it to his bedchambers and he was practically shaking with need, but tried to be controlled for my sake. He undressed me carefully making sure not to pop a button off my dress until I stood before him naked as the day I was born. Once I was unclothed. "I can't cook either. Though, I think it takes a big brain to spoil pasta with a sausage."Fine. I even didn't know you had to put pasta into a boiling water until Muli told me. "Twenty and ignorant", that sounded even as sexy as "Sixteen and legal" or "Eighteen and horny". Muli must have seen I was all in shivers, because he became really nice to me. He asked about my studies and told me I must have been an idiot, because I wanted to dump my law studies and focus full time on journalism..