Dangerous and possibly illegal."I wanted to run from the room. Instead I tried to calm things down,"It's ok, Mom. I just won't use the bathroom during...school. And If it'san emergency, I'll go to the nurses' room. It won't be too long beforeyou find a way to change me back anyways. Right? Then things can goback to normal."A cascade of emotions played across my mother's beautiful face, andevery one opened up a pandora's box of conflicting feelings at my core.There was something she wasn't telling. “No, Mom. I love him.”Mom looked at Sam some more, then at me. That stare was back. She looked down at the table in front of her. One deep breath in, hold, breath out. Again. A third time.Silence.When Mom finally looked up again, once more at Sam, then at me, she was calmer. The stare was gone and her face had softened, but she wasn’t smiling.“I love you both.”Pause.“Now, tell me what is going on. All of it. Sam, you first.”All of it? I wasn’t sure she needed to know all of it. I was very sure. "Siobhan promptly dragged Julia out of the door and it fell quiet in theroom. Danny sat back down on the sofa and said, "Wow, Carl, they aresome pair."Carl smiled and said, "Yes, they're wonderful girls. I hope they weren'ttoo much for you, they can be a bit overpowering at times." No, I enjoyed it, thank you for the invitation, but I guess I should begoing too. Can you call me a cab, I don't fancy walking to be honest." Why don't you stay here?" Carl said, "I mean I have a spare bedroom, soit. Along the whole of onewall parallel to the bed was a series of wardrobes with mirrored doors fromfloor to ceiling. Excellent!!! I moved over to the bed, kicked off my shoes, piled up the pillows andjust lay back watching her. She seemed now to lack all will, waiting to bedirected. "Put the glass and bottle on the bedside table near me and cometo the side of the bed" I ordered. "I think that it is time to lose therest of your clothes - just slowly strip". She looked at me helplessly andslid off.