Most of those she'd formed relationships with in her life had left eventually because they were unable to deal with that knack. There had been some ho...e that in such a different situation, things might work out differently, but they were being taken down different paths, it seemed, and she didn't yet know where hers would take her.The edges of the room were lined with soft cushioned benches, long backless couches really, and a spot on one where she could keep the entrance she had come through. They crept up behind the boys and put their arm around them."Do you two know any cute guys that would like to take a couple of girls to a movie?" Sally said."Yeah, we are looking for a date for the rest of the day." Kim added.Paul and his brother turned around and the girls kept their arms around them. They smiled at Kim and Sally and asked if they had a good time shopping.Kim stretched up, kissed Paul on the cheek and said, "Yes we did, thanks for being so understanding." That's cool, we had a. I promise a great time will be had by all"She paused, and thought for a moment... Before replying"I think maybe I could help you out. Help you tick a couple of those boxes" Oh really? Howso?"She leaned over the wall and whispered "give me fifteen minutes, and leave your back door unlocked. I'll come up to your room and take a look at that list. See if I can help you figure out." What about your boyfriend?" He asked"Don't worry, he's working away tonight... We can be as loud as we want"She went. I do not understand my dichotomy. Horrified by my own body’s betrayal and lack of standards. Yet, I yearn for his touch. I want to run away. I want to run into his arms. Both are denied to me. My feet are rooted to the spot, waiting for him to make the next move. Why is my helplessness so arousing? What is happening to me?I try to fight back intense waves of surging raw lust, but these feelings are too sudden, too intense. I have no time to prepare. I am overcome. My horror dissipates, leaving.