‭ ‬I didn’t want to face up to telling Helen that she was not going to see her granddaughter for a long time, maybe never.‭ ‬The status upda...es on her life would be of little comfort to her.‭ ‬They would be cold and impersonal.‭ ‬They were meant only to let the bureaucracy know that Topaz was still alive and needed to be included in the budget next year.‭ ‬I had an idea, but I wanted some time to pass before I sprang it on good ole Bill. When I arrived in the parking lot of Ed’s office, Helen. Ohhhhhhh god! You just found that spot, the one where you want to kill for. Ahhhhhhhh. Just inside the tip of your vagina, the toys tip is pressed against your wall and you feel it all starting to get warm and fuzzy. You know you are about to explode but you refuse to. Ohhhhhhh. You are so flushed right now and you cannot take it anymore. All you can think of is a man's hard fucking cock inside you. So you push your toy in all the way. You hate using your hands as you need them free to touch. After nine long months of waiting…my unit was on its way to Kuwait. Back to Camp Buehring…back to the place where I would get to see the girl that I missed so much. I was so nervous I could puke. I wanted it to be perfect, no mistakes, no embarrassments, smooth as silk. I sent her an email when we got the office setup in our make shift ops tent. I told her that I was in Camp Buehring and that I got off work at ten. She replied saying that she got off two hours prior and that she wanted me to. She owned me body and soul now. After a long silent period Mary said, ?Yes Bitch I give you my permission to Mary Carlos, but first you must learn to speak Spanish. I will turn off your collar so you can speak to Carlos in private but elsewhere you are only to bark or whimper.? She wanted me to bark? She asked me, ?Do you understand Bitch?? I meekly said, ?Woof?. She then continued by telling me, ?When you can speak like a Mexican woman I will schedule your surgery. After the.