Would you buy one?" Kevin asked in the high pitched tones of a young boy.The door opened just enough for Kevin to see the face from the Guildpicture, ...ooking down at him. The door opened further and Kevin put onhis best smile. Jason was wearing a dirty white t-shirt, sweat pants,and flip flops. His large belly peaked out from under the shirt, burninginto Kevin's mind an image of pasty white flesh that he could have livedwithout."Look kid, I'd like to buy something, but I don't have any. All attempts at teaching Alawa any English failed miserably, though, but Mataoka had a good humored laugh at the garbled words that she struggled with and we persisted without success.It was late in the summer and I had moved down to the summer camp to work more ore when the first Indian came. Slowly, a straggle of women and children came into my summer camp and busied themselves looking around. Only a handful of old men and Walla accompanied them. All the other young men had stayed to defend. He was writing Marcia off now as atotal loss. That, Marcia realized now, was what this 3 a.m. meeting wasall about."What the hell is mom going to think?" I've talked to mom. She's understanding." Well, she'd have to be, wouldn't she?" I know I haven't been what she would have wanted me to be..." That's the understatement of the century." Listen, Matt, there's no need to get nasty. I've made mistakes, butthey largely the result of trying to be someone I wasn't. No matter whatyou may think, this. We then went to bed.I really had no idea what to expect. At one moment Cindy acted like a young girl while a few minutes later she acted like a grown woman. I knew I wanted to take it slow, but would she understand that I wasn't rejecting her? I had meant to sit and talk with her about us, our relationship, but there had been no time and here we were in bed together. It wasn't like the innocence of the previous evening, because we had been intimate in the morning and she had even spoken about.