I could still hear Tony’s words echoing in my mind. Was he right? Had these clothes really changed me that much? My real self surely would not care ...f he talked to me like that. The thoughts made me even more confused, and I began to sob again. My life was a mess. I desperately wanted to be like one of those happy girls walking home under their boyfriend’s arm, but I was a boy. It was only some stupid clothes. Though a boy would never prance around and act as stupid as this. Did that mean I was. Their bags were already made the day before and the clothes they had to wear, were lying ready for them.I went to Danny's room first. He was already awake but was staring at the ceiling."Good morning," I said when I walked in."Hi Veerle," he said.He was now used of me being naked around him, he didn't look upset about it anymore. It's like they say, if you see something every day, it becomes the most normal thing in the world."And how was your holiday?" I asked him."Better than I had thought,". "All the time?" asked the Doctor."Yes, we'd always start with mutual masturbation during... Look, do I have to use the medical terms?". I asked."We shouldn't be fucking talking about this here; I'm not comfortable with this conversation it's personal.", Interrupted Safira.What happened next really surprised me I was expecting the Therapist to tell us that we should move away from the topic as it made one of us uncomfortable. But no."I'm sorry, Safira, but it's central to your problems with. Emma looked towards Miss Johnson and Linda and could see they were agreeing more with Lucy than they with her. So, once again she was edging more towards accepting being punished.Lucy saw the uncertainty in Emma’s face and added, “I do love you so much Emma, and I know you love me, and that you spank me so long and so hard because you love me. Please know that my love for you will not diminish if you refuse to be disciplined, but I do think you would be wrong to impose your control over us then.