I don't honestly buy this on a conscious level, but I'm told it's there and explains part of what I did.Apparently I have some deep-rooted submission ...treak. Not a huge one – not anything that makes me need to wear any of those stupid clothes or run around and call any one master or get slapped around or anything like that. Just a need, at times, to have a man tell me what to do. To be, in the words of Doctor Bellingham, 'Firmly Guided'. It's not all the time, and not all the time in a specific. Quite soon we were immersed so deeply we forgot about others. Rahul was the first to push his dick in cunt. We of course bought condoms. Shabnam brought some jelly which I applied on his cock.Others stopped what they were doing and looked anxiously, nervously. I was also scared, how thick would my hymen be will it tear easily? Rahul adjusted the plastic sheet and cloth beneath my buttocks and slowly pushed. I bit my lip and clutched his shoulders. I could feel the resistance and pain. Rahul was. Mayweather asked if I wasok and I felt different. I asked what the procedure had done and allshe replied was, " I gave you an opportunity to please your wife andshe will be pleased." Dr. Mayweather then introduced me to the blondewhose name I found out to be Ashley. Ashley looked to be about 23. Shehad a slender build, was around 5'4, and had wonderful breasts. Theylooked to be about a 32 BB. Ashley looked into my eyes and she had saidthank you to me. I had no idea what she meant and why was. Bornstein says that masculine and feminine, gay and straight, maybe even male and female, are just roles. Some of us are flexible enough to play more than one role in a lifetime. Anyway, that's the message I got out of it. Shelly and I agreed that the best way for me to cope with my situation was to have fun with it, and make it work for me.I also had a very significant heart-to-heart talk on the phone with Mom. We grew closer than we'd ever been, now that she finally had a daughter in the.