“What was it baby?”You pause as you stair at me and answer “Anything but kissing Daddy”This melts me and I tell you I love you.“Love you too... I promise I will put on a show you will never forget” You hang up the phone and I raise my glass to you, light a cigarette and settle in to watch as you blow me a kiss and head back to the dancing.You are much more aggressive and focused when you return. Placing guys hands on your hips as though you have been given free range to have anyone you please.. I have none to offer. That is a problem inhibiting many plans, wishful plans. I return.A resuscitating fresh mug of coffee steaming into my nostrils, I sip at the scalding liquid. I wonder why EROS can’t make use of space, unused space, better?“Chief, Captain?” I distract them from professing renewed faith and plans to fill church pews when they locate one. “How big is our cargo hold?”We have three cargo holds, I learn. The forward hold, the smallest, mostly used for storing rope and hawsers,. . ?" I'll try," Malinda answered. When Melody narrowed her eyes she quickly continued, "Okay, okay. I promise." Good," Melody nodded once. "Then I think you should lie here for a while and think about what you've done in the past and what you want to do in the future. A little introspection will be good for you." You sound more like Mother than Mother ever did," Malinda grumped. "When did you grow so old?" We all grow up, Mandy," Melody smiled patting her arm. "Now is my time and soon it will. "I know he was a reluctant crossdresser, but he loved me enough to endurewhatever I wanted - until I went too far - and he divorced me and leftme!" Barbara burst into tears, and hugged me tightly, and my eyes wettedas I hugged her in return."Barbara, you nearly killed me ..." I whispered, "you were getting fartoo ambitious with your fantasies..."Sheila joined our hug, and we stayed hugging and sobbing quietly for awhile."And now little Karl is dead as well ..." wailed Barbara, and thisstarted.